২৭ আগস্ট, ২০১২

Understanding Relations & Expectations

I'm having a troublesome day, which is probably the reason behind writing this. I'm determined not to give some relationship advice as I'm certainly not the best person to give something like that. For my whole life, I'm a fair amount of unsocial & introvert, I hardly can engage with people easily. All my good friends are from the result of my long time exposure with them. It though helped me a lot to screen out "Real" friends, which is like finding needle in haystack, still I have so much built-in complexity implanted genetically that sometimes it makes life troublesome like this. I depend on my real relations so much that expectation hurts me a lot. I can be real good for my friends, I try to understand when & where they need me, but sometimes when I need someone to depends on, it seem.. you know.. hard to find one. I really wish to make them feel me, I struggle a lot and fails. Not that, it's entirely their fault, maybe It's because of my troublesome expression of what I need from them. But that is the worst feeling having no one to count on your side. I know whole post makes no sense and probably the silliest post I've ever made.



Sometimes probably best is doing nothing and waiting for a miracle to happen, at least for me.  
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